"The Pentagon trained Ethiopian forces - including the notorious Agazi special forces unit." - Jeremy Scahill, founding editor of the Intercept, and National Security Correspondent testifying before the United States Senate Judiciary Committee on December 9, 2010.
She looks much older than her actual age. One could guess she is sixty
or even older. The truth is that she is only forty-four. “I was born two
years before the military took power” she says referencing history. Her
wrinkled face, discolored skin, and greying hair tells a story of a
women who endured unimaginable tragedy. Living has been hard for her
over the last decade or so. “I lost my first born 10 years ago, when we
the opposition won the election and they refused to relinquish power”
she says her sight disappearing into the horizon as if she is expecting
someone to emerge from behind the hills.
“How did he die?” I asked following her into the house from the cool
evening breeze outside where we spent the last fifteen minutes. “They
killed him in a broad day light along with his best friend. They were
killed at the same spot the same day in Addis Ababa.” She said, tears
streaming over her wrinkling face. The depth of her anguish is too
strong for words. I got up and sat close to her holding her hands. “who
killed them?” I asked. She took a long pause, walked a few steps to
close the door and whispered “Agazi, Agazi killed them” and handed me
the pictures of her dead boys after kissing them couple of times. They
were school graduation pictures. Smiling, aspirational and full of hope.
The pictures were wet with her tears. Each drop spreading on the
smiling faces of her children as if they were sharing a grief, crying
together so to speak. I felt their presence in the room. May be the
connection between a mother and child transcendence mortality, I don’t
know, but their spirits were palpable in the house where they grew up in
before their lives were cut short. I took a sheet of tissue paper out
of my pocket and wiped both pictures gently. As I looked at them, with
an imploring look, I thought they would have been my brothers, nephews,
cousins even children. They looked so familiar to me; even if I have
never met them. Perhaps, they reminded me of my own youth.
Fearless, committed to and in love with the concept of democracy,
freedom and justice. It is unfulfilled dream of my generation, the
generation before me, and the current generation. “What a curse.” I
murmured to myself.
As I stood up to leave, the mourning mother gave me a warm hug and
gently asked me to come and visit her again. I promised to return and
left fighting my tears. On my way out I couldn’t help but to think of
her loneliness, the eerie quite in the house once full of playful energy
with two handsome boys. I tried to understand and even feel a mother’s
sorrow. I can only pretend.
I have heard the name Agazi before, many times in fact. People in
Ethiopia talk about Agazi with an understanding of some kind of foreign
occupying army. The actions of the group according to those who
encountered or witnessed say Agazi’s “are a killing machine.
Indiscriminate killers who do not distinguish between children and
adults, the elderly and the youth, men and women, armed and unarmed.
They just kill, and it is fair to say that they appear to be enjoying
killing.”
I spoke with one elderly man who was in the resistance against the
occupying forces of Benito Mussolini during World War II and he equates
Agazi with the Carabinieri of the fascist forces. “They don’t speak our
languages, they don’t care for our culture and values. They come anytime
they wish, they sometimes snatch our men and boys; at other times they
kill them on the spot. They occupy our villages, towns and cities. You
see, that is exactly what the Carabinieri and Italian forces did.” His
long white beard, wrinkled forehead and twinkly little eyes appear to be
corroborating his story. “We never had a government in our history with
this level of cruelty against its own people. “You know what we did
with Carabinieri? He says with a sense of pride and honor tangible in
his voice. “With the help of God and our resistance fighters, we kicked
them out.” He said. I can clearly hear his fierce patriotic fire. “We
will do the same against these Agazi’s. The new generation have our
spirit of resistance. It is a matter of time. Our country will be free.”
He said holding firm into his walking stick. It is a tragic irony of
historical comparison but this is not the first time I have heard such a
comparison. It attests to the unparalleled nature of the regimes
violent behaviour.
Where ever there is popular discontent or revolt against the regime in
any part of the country Agazi appears from nowhere to crush it. I have
heard numerous general stories in the past, about the group’s brutality
and its utter disregard to human life. Having the opportunity to speak
with a grieving mother who lost two of her beloved sons to Agazi sniper
gave me a different perspective. A sorrowful curiosity. A desire driven
by a tragedy to know and expose more about this notorious paramilitary
group.
The name Agazi strikes fear and terror in Ethiopia the same way Caravana
de la muerte (Caravan of Death) a Chilean Army Death Squad terrorized
the country following the 1973 coup lead by Augosto Pinochet. Or General
Jose Alberto Medrano’s Organizacion Democratica Nacionalista
(ORDEN)-the first paramilitary death squad in El Salvador involved in
kidnaping, assassination, and torture of dissidents. Agazi as it is
called, is a shadowy semi- autonomous paramilitary group accountable
only to a select few senior echelon members of Tigray People’s
Liberation Front (TPLF). The group is named after one of the founding
members of TPLF called Zeru Gessesse nick named Agazi. The group in real
conventional military standard could be categorized as a private army
resembling a mercenary group that is hired by war lords to protect their
interest. It’s operational command and control is outside of even the
Tigray ethnic group dominated national defence structure. It’s main
purpose of existence is to ensure the regimes hold on power remains
unchallenged even if it means burning a village, massacring civilians
and terrorizing entire communities. The group established in the early
days of TPLF have a mask of “fighting terrorism” to appease western
donors for resources, training and armament. In reality, most of Agazi’s
work has been crushing domestic opposition against the regime.
A few investigative journalists have attempted to inquire about Agazi
and the role of foreign countries in the training and arming of this
notorious group. Among these investigative reporters Jeremy Scahill is
the most prominent and inquisitive in his search to find US’s role of
training similar groups in Afghanistan, Mali, Somalia and Yemen. On
December, 9, 2010 he testified before Congress and outlined his
findings. His testimony covered wide range of issues including drone
operations, US engagement with war lords in Somalia among many other
related subjects.
He questioned the US role in helping and enabling military units in
these countries to terrorize their own civilian population under the
guise of “fighting terrorism” According to Mr. Scahill “US Special
Operations teams had long been in Ethiopia training its notorious Agazi
Commandos.” His investigative work shades light on the dangers of
collaborating with regimes such as TPLF and its long term consequences
both for the US and the people under the iron rule of authoritarian
regimes.
Keeping my promise, I returned to visit the mother of two murdered young
boys. It was a misty cool evening. She was puttering around her back
yard. “I have to stay busy to keep my mind off from my children. I miss
them.” She says wiping the dirt from her hands. Her hug has a motherly
embrace and warmth. I followed her to the house. “God bless you for
coming to visit me.” She says walking into the kitchen. “I am going to
make you tea” she said. “Thank you!” I replied. In a few minutes she
returned with a cup of tea and a few biscuits on a small handmade
basket. Our conversation waded into various subjects. She told me that
many mothers these days wear black for their murdered children. She
mentioned some by name. “My friends, members of our community, and
people in the cities have someone killed in their families, these are
dark days.” She said.
I returned to know more about her murdered children and also to see how
she is holding up. She looked tired as if she hasn’t slept for days. I
asked her if she is getting enough sleep. “Every time I close my eyes I
see my boys. Coming back from school, helping me with some chores, or
doing their homework.” I can’t sleep. I don’t remember the last time I
had a good night sleep” she says. The depth of her pain, layers of the
trauma resulting from the cruelty of state violence has taken a toll on
her.
“Where were they buried?” I inquired. “Oh not far from here it is a
short walk. I go there every Sunday to talk to my boys.” “Would you take
me today?” I asked “Yes, I’ll take you.” She quickly put her black
shawl over her black dress and asked me to follow her “this way” she
said, I followed her. We walked for about 15 minutes through a dry grass
land with a narrow country side road. From a distance I see a few
animals grazing. After a short walk we reached the church compound.
There were a few worshippers praying outside the church and others are
just arriving. She kneeled before the main gate and said a few words of
prayer. I followed suite. After a few steps she lead me to the graveyard
where her two boys lie. As we get closer I can hear a soft voice
followed by weeping. “Here” she said.
“They are sleeping here the same way they slept together at home when
they were little boys, next to each other, my beautiful boys” said,
wiping tears from her face. I tried to comfort her. Fighting my own
tears. She told me the youngest only sixteen was shot and killed when he
was taking part in a peaceful protest. “There are many mothers like me
in this country, thousands, who lost their children to Agazi bullet.
“I heard they were trained by the American’s. Is it true?” She asks me.
There is some sense of forcefulness, even anger in her voice. “Yes, I
have heard the same story” I replied. “Why would they train and arm a
group who will kills our children? I thought American’s were good
people. Caring people.” “It is not the American people; it is the
politicians who make these kind of decisions. I said trying to give her
rational explanation. It meant a little comfort to her. “May be educated
people like you should take our message to the American politicians and
ask them to stop helping the Agazi kill our children.” I promised her I
will make sure her message gets to the US policy makers, the US public
and the wider world.
As I got up to leave she looked into my eyes with a plea that says
“please let the world know our suffering. Please let those who train and
arm Agazi know that they are training indiscriminate killers. Let them
know the sorrow of a mother who lost not just one but two of her
children.” “What do you call a childless mother? I am childless because
my children were murdered by the Agazi.” she said. I have no answer to
all of her questions. I am not even sure she was expecting any answers
from me or she was simply expressing her sorrow out loud. May be both,
but the truth is these are questions that I grapple with every day. I
know also, that these are questions thousands of mothers across this
country are asking.
As we drove away, my eyes wondered through the country side, there are
no children playing, no farmers on the field, no travellers on the
roads. There is an eerie feeling of life under siege. From a distance I
can hear a gun fire. Another young man, young women, an elder, who would
be the victim this time? Who would be Agazi’s prey? I wondered.
Lying in bed that night, I struggled to make sense of this brutality,
the savagery of industrialized and institutionalized violence against
innocent and un armed civilians. My mind roamed from place to place,
from a mother’s tears to a father’s anguish. I tried to close my eyes
with a hope of getting some sleep, but I couldn’t turn my mind off. I
kept hearing “every time I close my eyes I see my boys.” I wondered if
my visit made things even much worse for her emotionally. After numerous
toss and turns, I gave up on falling asleep and I pulled a folded paper
which I keep in my note book. It was a poem by the Roman lyric poet
Gaius Valerius Catullus (C. 84 – 54BC) which he wrote for his dead
brother.
“By strangers’ coasts and waters,
Many days at sea,
I came here for the rites of your unworlding,
Bringing for you, the dead,
These last gifts of the living
And my words — vain sounds for the man of dust.
Alas, my brother, you have been taken from me.
You have been taken from me
And by cold hands turned to shadow and my pain.
Here are the foods of the old ceremony appointed Long ago for the starvelings under the earth.
Take them.
Your brother’s tears have made them wet.
And take into eternity my hail and my farewell. ”
Many days at sea,
I came here for the rites of your unworlding,
Bringing for you, the dead,
These last gifts of the living
And my words — vain sounds for the man of dust.
Alas, my brother, you have been taken from me.
You have been taken from me
And by cold hands turned to shadow and my pain.
Here are the foods of the old ceremony appointed Long ago for the starvelings under the earth.
Take them.
Your brother’s tears have made them wet.
And take into eternity my hail and my farewell. ”
I read the poem a few more times in memory of men and women young and
old who are murdered by Agazi forces since TPLF came to power. The more I
read it, I wanted to travel across this land, and talk to every single
mother whose child was murdered by Agazi forces. I wanted to somehow
feel their pain or at least listen to it. Beyond my emotional upheaval
and ambition, the practicality of my desire I realized, is almost
impossible. Given the sheer number of murders carried out by Agazi, I
may have to travel for the next few years to reach only a small portion
of mothers who wake up every morning with an empty chair at the table.
Their children absent from their class rooms, young men and women who
will not plan their weeding’s and give them grandchildren.
In the end, my mind settled on a rational reasoning while my heart
wanted to travel across the country and listen to all the mothers.
Perhaps, it has a selfish ulterior motive of my own desire to reconnect
with this beautiful land of my ancestors. The time and the place, the
date and the season, or the person who fired the gun certainly might be
different. The truth is that the story of mothers who lost their
children, the degree of their pain, the trauma and the anguish they
experience is the same whether they live in and around the northern
mountains or near the western tropical forest, the central plains or the
southern grassland, the east, the country side or the cities. It is all
the same. Profound sorrow and unending pain.
For now, I have decided to tell the story of a mother that I know about.
A mother, to whom I have the privilege and a great honor of meeting. A
mother who I cannot name for now. Her two boys, their names and images
permanently etched in my mind. With every rising sun they besiege and
challenge me to continue to be on the side of justice and truth not
power and privilege. It is the least I can do.
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